Before.

Before I allowed myself to feel open with everyone
I wasn't afraid to talk;
I felt the safe, sane borders of monogamy and clung to them in times of desperation
And a titter of "Oh, I'm married," and a laugh-you-off-and-brush-past-to-the-ladies'-room,
But now I think...
Well this is something -
Or, I want you...
But I can never bring myself to say it,
Impressive artists I'd like to experience...
How do you put something taboo into expression?
If I were drunk enough, maybe...
But I never get drunk.