I remember your tiny footprint
And thinking that we would bond forever
We would listen to music in the car
And I would tell you how to talk to boys
And how to keep yourself sacred
Not sexually, but emotionally
To take care of yourself
For real
Not just for everyone else's benefit
And today your rage slammed door screamed at father hurt me when you slammed your body against mine and
I feel helpless on a level I didn't know existed.
It doesn't matter how hard I battle codependency
Or my own demons
Or the boundaries I learn to set with my parents
Your wild hair flying
Drinking hose water
Defiantly wearing a purple skirt when I didn't know if I could handle a girly girl
I don't know you
Mohawk Boy
Hoodie to hide your body
I want to clutch your hand
I want to take you walking along the ocean just the two of us looking for shells in the sunrise morning: do you remember that day? Where has my wild faerie child gone? How deeply is she buried?
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